Embarrassments

When I was studying in my school, I used to be highly confident. I made so many extempore speeches and never stepped back .I would pitch in and volunteer for any activity that is not even in my bucket . All these went in vain as I joined my under graduation. People usually transform better as they move from school to a wider environment like college.

But it was completely a vice versa in my case. Since Anna University is a highly reputed institution with so many bundle of talents, that frightened me. I started stepping back and that is where my level of confidence started decreasing gradually.

I was afraid to open up and speak out my mind. I was restricting myself to my own sphere. People who know me from my college days would address me as a “dumb”. This progressed as years passed and there was one day where my professor asked me to talk about some topic from a subject. I stood in the middle of the class and I tried to start confidently. But I could not get through.

I was searching for words and I fumbled to the core. The entire classroom broke into laughter and kindled my way of speaking. I could not deliver what I really thought. This incident gave me a huge self realization and would probably be the most embarrassing moment of my life.

This prickled my mind a lot. As I completed my graduation and started my career, I was so much keen about one thing which is , “Speak Up for yourself”. I was not sure what I will pursue in my career but I don’t want to lose anything just by being dumb and make it a brand for me.

This does not mean I have evolved as a public speaker and I can preach people. I still fumble and be an introverted personality but career growth doesn’t rely on what u say but on what u portray and show to the world. I have drawn a line between professional and personal characteristics in such a way that it should not be barrier for my job front.

Embarrassments might kill but the take away matters. There is no need to prove ourselves to the ones that laughed as the success we make would give a slippershot answer to those ridiculous smiles.

It begins…

And he sat in the corner of the room biting his nails impatiently.The door was latched as tightly as it could be.

There was no means by which a pinch of light could peep  into the room.

A plethora of thoughts dumped his cerebral artery.All he could hear is a shout for a six and criticisms for a wicket by his friends who were busy watching the IPL.

He could not take his eyes off the mobile screen which laid on the table.For every now and then,he was holding it in his hands.

A myriads of rejections,a pyramid of papers,a stockpile of disrespect,a heap of knock backs were about to come to an end after long struggles .

His story has been agreed to be published in one of the country’s giant magazines.It was the day for which he has been waiting for long years.

His heart was accelerating surplus of blood into his veins.

His phone’s screen did not miss to grab his momentary attention.

And the table was vibrating with the screen blinking.He jumped on to the table like a hungry cheetah capturing its prey.

He was taking deep breathes,his pulse rate was multiplying.Like the water piercing out from the host pipe,tears started rolling down his eyes.

He asked the person on other end of the call to repeat the statement when he heard,”Your story has been published in our magazine”.

When his friends were celebrating the victory of CSK,he roared in happiness for his lifetime victory!!!!